Sunday, June 13, 2010

'Ang Buhay na Hindi Bitin'

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Finals came early. Projects and other home reports were overflowing that I was deprived of sleep for several days. I was really overwhelmed with the stress and pressures from school, adding to the circusare some uncontrollable circumstances happened on my personal life, and so ‘QUITTING’ was the last resort I could think of.

One time inside my room, in the midst of all the paper works in front of me, a flash of realization came to me unexpectedly. I was oblivious for a moment. Why do I keep myself busy doing all these things? Are these things of help to me? Is this the life I wanted after all? I was literally not happy about my life. I felt discontented, like there’s a big hole within me. I wanted to figure it out.

Just to unwind and leave all the worries behind for a while, I went out. I spent the whole time afternoon wandering around the stores insidea mall with a friend when my attention was held with the inviting booklet. I usually rushon magazine stalls and bookshops when I go there and luckily I found a booklet which would answer all my queries in mind. I was amazed on the price because it’s quite cheap for a booklet with wonderful cover and high class paper. The title was 'Ang Buhay na Hindi Bitin: How to Live Life Content, Blessed and Worry-free' written by Eduardo O. Roberto, Jr., published by OMF Literature Inc.Without hesitation I bought one. What is a little Php 10 out on your purse when you can even afford to buy a cellphone load worth Php 15?

I just would like to share a little something about this certain booklet that made me realized I was not a mistake. I have my purpose. I was just amazed how I happen to acquire this at the right time and atthe right moment.

As soon as I reached home, I read a few pages from the booklet with all of my excitement. On the second page, I was asked:

How are You?”, “Kumusta and Buhay?” (I answered as if I was really asked by an existing interviewer)

 Well, life was totally fine for me, I believe so because I knew God has always been with me. BUT I WAS SO FED UP WITH MY LIFE THAT TIME, WITH ALL THEENDLESS STRESS AND PRESSURES FROM SCHOOL AND MY FAMILY; I COULD NOT FEEL HIS PRESENCE.I FELT WASTED AND PURPOSELESS.

On the next few pages it listed some of the problems we have. There are problems that are beyond our control and are inevitable. They are everywhere and we all have it. They are part of our life. These are just challenges set by Jesus to make us stronger and mature. It’s like Christ’s indirect way of saying, “Aba, nakakalimutan na ata ako ng anak ko ah, bigyan ko nga ito ng pagsubok nang maalala na man niya ako.”But despite these we still stand firm. THAT MOMENT I REALIZED, I WAS NOT ALONE AFTERALL. EVERYONE IS ALSO FACING THEIR OWN PROBLEMS IN LIFE.Yung mga problema ko sa school works at sa bahay, eh wala lang pala sa katiting yun kumpara sa problema ng iba. There are still more challenges that would come my way. And I should be thankful to Him because I’m still here, being able to enjoy life, because I did not quit.

As I went through my reading I felt an amazing kind of mixed emotions. Another question popped again on my head. Like what I’ve always asked myself, what am I here for? Masaya naman ako, pero parang iba pa rin eh.Bakit kahit anong gawin ko parang may kulang pa rin? But before I jump to conclusion, the book itself answered my question.

'God has Purpose for You' (after I read this, LITTLE DID I KNOW, A PURE SMILE WAS PAINTED ON MY FACE)

“Hindi kaaksidente.No matter what you are now or what has happened to you in the past, He has a plan and a purpose for you”.

We all have definite purpose why we exist. We were wired according to what He had intended us to be. We just have to live according to His will. It’s not bad to plan for our life, but God’s plan for us is still the best. So ano na? Ano nga ba ang tunay na sagot sa lahat ng kakulangan na nararamdaman ko at mo ngayon? I was craving for an answer that moment. And page 9 did not fail to feed my yearning.

“The Answer, ask Jesus to come into your life to be your Lord and Savior”.

The moment I read it I was teary-eyed. I knew within me that I was not perfect, and that I do commit sins. There could be times that I even doubted Him for some reasons, since at times I could not feel his presence. He seemed distant. But I realized all I did was believed, but HE needs more than just believing. He needs our trust. Believing is different from trusting.

Despite my vulnerability and fragile nature, God has always been there providing me a room for changes and most of all chances. There are countless blessings I should be thankful for, and these problems I have at the moment are just challenges to make me stronger.

The author shared a good conclusion from the 'Father of Calculus', Blaise Pascal:

“Every man is born with a vacuum, an emptiness that can only be filled by finding God.”

Even Blaise Pascal realized all these.

“God Loves You So Much.”
Mahal na mahal ka ng Diyos, and that's why He sent His one and only Son to you so that you can experience an abundant, joyful life ---- ang buhay na hindi bitin. (THIS PART OF THE BOOKLET CONCLUDED IT ALL)
The confusion inexplicably died out. The small booklet answered it all. Thanks to the author for letting me realize such a thing, a thing which boggled my mind for years in search for an answer. It was a search for something to fill this hole inside me. But the answer has just been waiting at my doorstep. Jesus has been constantly knocking at my door and serenely waiting for my response. I’m glad I opened the door and invited Him to come into my life.

“Will you accept His invitation?”

I uttered DEFINITELY! No second thoughts at all. Life has never been this good when you realize God has always been there for you and that you invited Him into your life.

Ganoon lang pala ka simple. Hindi naghahangad ng mga complicated na gawain ang Panginoon para mapalapit tayo sa kanya. He made it simple for us but still hindi bitin. There was a question again:

“How did you get this booklet?”

Of course sasabihin kong biniliko sa isang mall. But it was not the real answer. Hindi ba't para kay Hesus walang aksidente, lahat ay may worth, value and purpose.

“Maybe God meant it for you to read. There are no accidents, di ba?”

That line made me jump-off my seat. I was definitely happy and thankful to God for letting me realize all these things. Praise God that He has caused me to read and be inspired by the booklet, and of course to the author for sharing his talent and wisdom to us readers. I was extremely inspired.

 

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